I'm Never Cutting My Fringe Again


Okay, not to be dramatic, but cutting my fringe back in is the worst thing I've ever done. It's always a mistake. I think I'll look like some cute anime girl wearing six hundred petticoats and a chocolate brown bonnet and always being followed by cats, but I end up looking like the 1970s has spat directly onto my entire life. David Cassidy might've been able to pull of the "fringe weirdly swooshing out to both sides" look, but sadly I am not David Cassidy.


I look like some kind of blonde mushroom with a small bald spot, because there is a cowlick right at the top of my scalp that is hell bent on reminding the world I have a big white head, as if it must be documented. If my cowlick had hands it would probably email The Daily Mail photos of my scalp looking like Moses parted my hair as he did the Red Sea. Is biblical punishment being enacted upon my noggin? Probably.

Here is how it happens:


So I vow to refrain from this most grievous of sins again. I shall let my hair grow long, like a waterfall (a waterfall that sheds strands constantly and gets on everything, mind). I shall become Lady Godiva (anything to ride a horse - actually horses are very high up, so perhaps not). I shall respect the cycle of nature and let my hair assume direct control of itself henceforth. I shall ban all scissors from my vicinity and then swear in frustration when I need to cut out a beautiful picture of Dwayne 'The Rock' Johnson from a magazine to add to my Dwayne shrine. I shall resist the mysterious allure of whichever hair demon is beckoning me.

I'm going to stay in the No Fringe Club forever. Do NOT unlock the door. Please.

5 Favourite YouTube Videos I've Made

Sometimes looking at really old posts can give me a little spark of inspiration, and although there may be a lack of quality (especially in terms of pictures or video) I find that looking back on things can help me to re-assess what old things I can take forward or bring back in some way, and what I should leave in the past. There's quite a few old posts I love to look at from this blog because they remind me of a really good experience or idea, or just feel like really pure expressions of something, and the same can be true for my videos.


I thought it would be cool to compile some of my favourite YouTube videos from across my time making videos on this channel and detail what it is I still like about each one. Maybe this exercise will help me to make me new videos better, more creative, more genuine, or just more me. If not, consider this a simple showcase of some of my favourites for the purposes of self-indulgent reflection.


1. The Truth About YouTube (7th February 2016)


This one is a classic. I'm proud of this because I feel like it spoke to what people were talking about at the time. It was a response to Jack Howard's video, 'YouTube Discussion Continued', in which he talked about being bored with YouTube and about a perceived lack of new talent and creativity. My response was a tongue-in-cheek comparison of YouTube to the sea where I said that basically, there are always new and exciting people making new and exciting content but that it's discoverability of those people that's the problem. I like a combination of things about this video's construction: the grainy and badly lit footage, the little bits of humour alongside this earnest narration, and the brilliant happenstance that was my internet connection briefly dying during the filming of the video - acting as a perfect visual metaphor for a disconnection between video-makers and viewers trying to find them. This video spoke to people, but it had this great blend of silliness and real discussion to it.


2. Horse Butts, Paintings, & Bat Pusheen (30th November 2017)


This video marked the start of a bit of a change in direction for my channel. I wanted to step more seriously into the kind of vlogging where I show people my day, or my activities, and maybe sit and talk a little bit directly to the camera. I'd previously enjoyed making these really rapid stop motion vlogs most of the time, which were so quick as to be fleeting and had this kind of adventurous feeling to them as they raced past. I absolutely still love that format, but at this point I really wanted to foster something of a more intimate connection, a more thorough look at my life and thoughts. This vlog to me is a great example of the kind of feel I want to create with this style of video - the right combination of bizarre and spontaneous thoughts, some artwork I feel excited to show off, and some cute and bright visuals.

3. How To Make Great YouTube Videos: An Expert Guide (1st March 2016)


This video was really fun to make, and was my first attempt at a collaboration (ft. Scott/frigginboom). Most of the time when I make videos I don't use scripts, but some of my scripted videos stand out, and I loved writing this script and getting that goofy, sarcastic tone across. I really enjoy using purposefully rudimentary effects to enhance the comedic tone of a video, and I think that worked nicely here. This is the kind of video that is constructed very simplistically but has a solid idea or concept, and it's one of the videos that I enjoy re-watching the most. I can't help but laugh, not just at my own jokes (although really, I laugh endlessly at my own jokes) but also at Scott's perfect photos.


4. Get Ready With Me: Existential Crisis Edition (2nd November 2015)


I'm quite fond of this video partially because it's quite dark. I know good lighting is generally important for filming, but somehow the early morning darkness in this video works really well and enhances the style a bit. I wanted to lampoon the popular 'Get Ready With Me' videos I see a lot on YouTube (with love) and bring it to this insular place. I love making fun of myself and that was something I liked about this video too. Despite being effectively a parody of the conventions of YouTube videos, this video also ended up being quite explorative of my own psyche and sense of self on some level too, and I love that that can happen so much of the time when I'm trying to be silly.


5. Art Is Nice, Isn't It? (4th October 2016)


I had to include one of my stop motion vlogs in this list, and this one is a really nice example of how you can express something kinda special and heartfelt and nice within 60 seconds. Also it reminds me of how much I love visiting art galleries and looking at sculptures and all of that lovely stuff.

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I'm feeling very excited about making new videos right now, and I really hope I'll make some this year that can sit on a future list of videos I like the most or am most proud of. My next video will be ten hours of me gently coughing. Please look forward to it.

Invisalign Update: 2 Months In

I thought after 2 months and 4 tray sets I'd weigh in again and talk about how I'm getting on with my Invisalign treatment. At the moment it's still mostly pretty hard to detect any changes, but I know they're happening. There are some slight gaps visible now between some of my front teeth, so I guess they must be moving.


A Funny Thing


Last month I dyed my hair pink. I must've gotten a trace amount of hair dye in my mouth at some point, because I have definitely managed to dye some of the glue areas around the attachments on my teeth slightly pink. Fantastic. It is very slight and unnoticeable - I didn't notice until several days after it must've happened - and my dentist has reassured me it will come off. Still, it might be good to avoid hair dye if you're planning on getting Invisalign. I wasn't eating the dye, I promise.

A Scary Thing


I went to pick up my fifth and sixth tray sets the other day, and my dentist told me she had to file my teeth. This is a thing with Invisalign, sometimes you need what's called IPR (Interproximal Reduction) to make sure the teeth have enough space to move. This means they take a file to your enamel, and hopefully remove just a fraction of a millimetre. This is perfectly okay, but I was worried about it and hoped I wouldn't have to have any IPR done on my teeth at all. I did, however, need some of the bad and naughty enamel to be filed away. After she did the filing, I had a look at my teeth and I couldn't notice anything. The filing was minimal enough to be very hard to notice when looking at my teeth, so I feel quite happy with it. I hope there won't need to be any more of it, but I trust my dentist and I know she wants to minimise the IPR as much as possible too.

It feels quite weird to have your teeth filed down, but for me I find it much less uncomfortable than those moments when I somehow scrape two of my teeth against each other. What a horrible feeling that is. Filing, at least for me, is a lot nicer.


Regime & Schedule


I am still sticking pretty strictly to the recommended wear of 22 hours a day without any problems, however I have had a couple of days out where I wanted to eat and drink, so I probably had my trays out for an extra hour or so on those days. I don't think this is a problem as long as I'm generally keeping to the recommended schedule (especially as I'm wearing each tray for about 2 weeks when I could theoretically change them more often), but sometimes it just feels really nice to let yourself have more of a break for a special occasion or outing.

Hygiene & Confidence


After 2 months, I'm really used to having the plastic in my mouth all the time, and I'm really used to the whole routine of flossing and brushing my teeth after every meal. It actually has been really beneficial for me in that I feel so much more confident that my teeth are healthy and clean now. I wonder what it will be like for me when I'm finished with treatment, because I feel like I'll want to carry on with most of the current routine. On one night when I went out for dinner and drinks I didn't brush my teeth for a while after eating and drinking, and the feeling of having any kind of residue in my mouth and on my teeth was so alien and strange. My teeth feel so clean all the time and I also no longer have sensitivity in my back teeth. I used to feel quite anxious about my teeth. They were looked after properly, but I worried about them a lot. Now I have completely gotten past that feeling, and I think the brushing and flossing routine I have now has made me feel so much more secure, healthy, and clean.



I love that I'm learning and gaining more from this experience than just the movement of my teeth itself. That's really valuable to me. I'm excited to see how the next months go.

Wishlist: 5 Adorable Hair Accessories

Hair accessories are quite exciting. They're one of life's small joys. Seriously, I don't know why hair accessories make me so blissful and happy, but they do. In celebration of that, I have created this wishlist of some adorable and versatile hair accessories that we all may enjoy.


1. Brushed Disc Hair Tie - £4.00 | ASOS


I'll start off with a really simple and sleek hair tie - it just looks super smart and cute. A nice little disc to give your ponytail a nice bit of extra flair.


2. 3 Pack Multi Coloured Ombre Spiral Hair Bobbles - £2.49 | New Look


I picked these mostly for the colours. They're pretty magical looking and sometimes I need some magical soft pastel colours in my hair. The ombre/gradient effect is a really nice touch.


3. Yasmin Metallic Star Bunny Ear Scrunchie - £2.00 | Boohoo


Scrunchies are very cute in general, but what's even cuter? Bunny ears! I love this style of scrunchie so much and I want to collect a million of these.


4. Velvet Bow Hair Elastic - £9.50 £6.50 | Oliver Bonas


This is a really classic velvet bow, and this is exactly the kind of hair tie I've been looking out for - even more so than the bunny ear scrunchies. Please inform me of any hair ties with bows like this so that I can dutifully get them all and become the unquestioned bow queen.


5. Velour Scrunchie - £3.99 | H&M


As is probably quite evident already from this post, the 'bunny ear' style of bow has really caught my eye recently, and I love H&M's take on it here that makes the ears really long. Maybe it's a secret wish to become a cute little floppy-eared rabbit myself that makes me so interested in these, but whatever it is, I have to have one - or several.

5 Favourite Songs | January 2018

I love music a lot and like to discover as much music as I possibly can on a regular basis, so I thought it would be fun to pick out five favourite songs that I've been listening to during the last month and talk a little bit about each song and why I rate it so highly. So strap yourselves into the music ride and let's go.


1. JONGHYUN - 빛이 λ‚˜ (Shinin')


Of course, I had to include this song. His first single released posthumously, 빛이 λ‚˜ (Shinin') is an upbeat track with some great hooks, a colourful music video featuring a disco ball and some cassette tapes, and a touching as well as catchy promise to "always be with you". I really love this song, and it makes me so happy to have something like this - it's comforting to see him again.

Links: YouTube | Spotify


2. AKKOGORILLA - GREEN QUEEN x PARKGOLF


Infectious joyful rap here. I was sucked into this one because the line delivery is just so much fun and this song has such a great sense of unabashed fun and almost playful brattiness. Put this on at a party.

Links: YouTube | Spotify


3. Aly & AJ - I Know


Aly & AJ have new songs, and they are amazing. I Know, their second single from a new EP, marking a switch back to their original name after briefly calling themselves 78violet, is a smooth and rhythmic synth-y affair with dreamy vocals opining on how much they're gonna take care of you and make everything fine. It's great to see these girls come back and show just how great they can sound. Like a curtain caught in the breeze and a really tasty tiramisu. That's the kind of images the song put in my head. I mean, I know I visualise desserts often, but believe me, it made me think of creamy and rich desserts. It makes sense, I promise.

Links: YouTube | Spotify


4. The Modern Strangers - Coco Hello


This is an incredibly dance-able song which had itself fully lodged in the musical roundabout inside my brain on first listen. So incredibly funky. There are hand claps.

Links: YouTube | Spotify


5. Troye Sivan - My My My!


If you're familiar with my music tastes, you'll know I'm an absolute sucker for an undulating, bassy rhythmic synth (see one of my favourite 2017 single releases - TAEMIN's MOVE - κ·ΈλŒ€λ‘œ repeat indeed). This song provides that in spades, as well as an exhilarating chorus that sounds like Troye is calling out to the heavens with passion. It's the best, and very much helped by an Anton Corbijn style video shot in mostly black and white.

Links: YouTube | Spotify


That concludes my round-up, but what songs will I be listening to next month, and will they be as heavily synth-focused as this lot? We'll see.

Stars & Swiss Rolls


Here are some paintings. As you can see, I've gone for the beautiful Irn Bru colour combination of orange and blue. A flawless choice.

One of my favourite characters to draw is "star wearing sunglasses". What a mysterious and cool individual. I aspire to be more like that star.


I really like the muddy brown and dark blue that come from mixing these bright orange and blue colours. I enjoy a nice, dark, earthy colour - perhaps especially when positioned near some bright colours, guiding them and watching them. The colour guardians, if you like.

I was also inexplicably thinking about confectionery whilst painting. Not that that's unusual. Swiss rolls and other members of the cake family truly have restorative properties. My mental health tip: cake.


Zaful Valentine's Day Sale Wishlist: 10 Sweet Lace Dresses ☆♬

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I've been asked by Zaful to do another wishlist for them as part of their Valentine's Day sale promotions, so let's take a look at their collection of sweet and romantic lace dresses - a known weakness of mine.


1. Flare Sleeve Floral Lace Dress - $31.99


There are so many interesting things you can do with lace. It has so much possibility because of its texture, pattern, colour, etc. I love what this dress does, combining lace with a floral pattern, flared out sleeves, and a very dark green. This is a forest fairy kind of dress.


2. Hollowed Out Ruffle Dress With Tank Top - $27.49


This looks like the outfit I would wear if I was a spooky ghost haunting Captain Kirk for some reason on the original series of Star Trek, and for that reason I need it.



3. Long Sleeve High Low Mini Lace Pleated Dress - $31.99


I love everything about this dress. The pastel peachy colour, the pleated skirt, the exquisite rose patterning in the lace. It's very pretty. It also slightly reminds me of The Hunger Games, so there's that.



4. Sweetheart Neckline Mini Lace Dress - $24.49


There is little lace on this, but I really like how understated it is. It shows how you can use lace in a small way to soften a garment, and I just think it's so adorable with the little straps and the sweetheart neckline.


5. Backless Mock Neck Lace Mini Dress - $26.49


This is a lovely all over lace dress. I think the mock turtleneck gives it a nice formal look and it's just so pretty.


6. Strappy Peplum Lace Overlay Dress - $36.99


This one is a really interesting, crochet-like dress. I love the colour, the use of stripes, and the shape of the dress that gives it a soft, beachy look.



7. Long Sleeve Openwork Lace Hook Dress - $30.99


I love this dress because it looks like a lace curtain, and until now I didn't know how much I wanted to dress like a lace curtain.



8. See-Through Long Sleeve Dress - $21.46


Yes, this is a see-through dress, and I want it, and I want to wear a massive Teletubbies t-shirt underneath it. No one can stop me from achieving my suspiciously Teletubby-focused dreams.



9. Cold Shoulder Midi Crochet Lace Dress - $13.27


Here's another beachy dress, this one in white, with a nice top and bottom crochet texture detail. It looks very comfy. I don't wear white that often, but I love how bright and light it is and I'd love to wear more white and beachy things at some point. Crochet stuff is so cute too.



10. Round Neck Flare Sleeve Lace Dress - $34.99


I like the colour of this dress a lot. I've been really into pastel colours lately (as have many people, I've noticed), and there's just something comforting about a baby blue like this. I love the floral pattern in the lace and the length of the dress.

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So, do you like lace? Are you inspired somehow to walk around with armfuls of lace and a spell in your eye? Or perhaps just to wear a Teletubbies t-shirt? I'm a little tempted to start wearing lace exclusively. I really do love it a lot.